Inspired to spin?

My wheel has been sitting in the corner looking at me pathetically crying out "Spin with me!" for about 3 months now. I have been doing everything I can to block the voice out. I come up with a million excuses. There are too many other things that I have to do (or would rather do). This is because I can't spin. I suck at it. I feel like I have been fighting with my wheel and I don't want to break down and talk to it again for fear of another argument. I can do this. I just really want it to come out well, for once. I was really starting to get the hang of the drop spindle...until it broke. Darn cheap spindle. When it broke, er fell apart, I thought, Hey! I can just transfer all that I have been doing to my wheel! This will work for me finally! *tear* it did not. There may have been some explicitives used. I don't think that anything was thrown across the room, but I did yank all the yarn off the bobbin in a not nice manner. I lost it. I lost my cool with my wheel. And now I have to go crawling back to it and beg it to take me back. But I know things will be just the same. I know that the yarn wannabes will break everytime I get about a foot going so that I have to reattach. I know that I will have to redo each join about 3 or 4 times because it will end up randomly sliding apart. I know that I have some very lovely wool hiding in the back of my linen closet that wants to be turned into something usable so badly, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I don't want to ruin the pretty roving. I don't want to damn it to the will-never-be-used yarn hell that is the smaller of two sterilite tubs of yarn that I have at my house. They will definately never make it to the yarn purgatory that is the larger of the yarn tubs or the yarn heaven that is the linen closet at the top of the stairs. Why would I want to waste the pretty fluffies like that? I don't want to. I want them to be yarn. I don't want them to be bits of yarnish stuff that could never be used for anything because it would either fall apart or roll back up in itself. I feel like I am in a bad relationship and I should just learn to say no, but I know that this thing can work out if I can just figure out what the problem is. I keep saying I am going to go to LYS on a Sunday and get a lesson or 30. *sigh* It doesn't happen. There is always someone to feed or take care of or whatever. Or I don't have a car. Or this or that. Or I have a big test and have to study. I can justify it all away so easy and then another week has passed where I don't touch my wheel. I don't want another week to go by without at least some attempt at making yarn. I don't even care if it looks bad, I just want it to be usable, which I thought I had at one time. It was nice and thin and pretty even, but then it just started falling apart. Maybe I will go home after work and after school and try it again. Only with the pretty fluff. I would really like to make up with my wheel.